Do you feel old yet, dear? Do your bones ache at night when you lay in your soft bed? Do your blue eyes wrinkle at the edges, does your blonde hair grow grey?
The joints go first, torn up, imagine how much effort they put in as you walk casually along, unafraid of death or destruction.
The eyes will sink into your face, dear, but you’ll still be beautiful as you cry in the mirror.
Your dreams will become stranger as you grow slowly towards darkness. You might see me there sometime.
You’ll know it’s time when you start to miss your grandmother’s clothes.
Her bones became your bones, you share the same face now, and fate.
Are you happy? Are you well-loved? Do you miss me? Who do you miss? Will you answer my questions, one day?
She isn’t waiting for you anywhere. You’ll never get to meet her again. Does that make you feel better, or worse?
You will sing to him before he can understand you. You will keep singing and become a memory in his head.
Sleep gently in the cool autumn nights. Feel restful in your bed. Stand still in the sunshine.
We are all going there.
At forty he speaks with the mouth of a 16 year old and it is not good anymore. Not because of age but because of repetition. He is saying different things but with the same tone, and it is all meaningless and a waste of trees. But who are we to judge? Does anything matter? Is it only important because life will keep going after we all die? If not, what other reason is there? Maybe she is not a believer but is searching for some kind of enlightenment.
It is only good until people have had enough of it. We are filled and then become empty again.
In my dream I am a witch with a broomstick.
Count the lines in the corner of her eyes. Can you read them like tea leaves?
God did not do anything. Sit down. Look at everything that has been built and destroyed because of us. We will go on making things until we cannot even when other people have had enough of it.
The lady from the GPS on my phone suggests I turn right onto Verde Vista, in a tone that reminds me of my grandfather: slightly southern, and with no knowledge of Spanish. verdeee vista.
The road is not very green but it is still beautiful. I appreciate it no matter how poorly named it was. But still, I drive on it to get somewhere else. This is not my final destination. This green road, this city. I’m not really sure where I’m going, my life doesn’t have a GPS lady telling me what to do. Other than myself. But we all seem to be going somewhere. And it’s best to keep moving, to keep driving down the green views. If you stop you might not ever make it to all the other beautiful places. If you wait, you might not be around for the next season, no matter how old or young you are. You might not ever get there, if your phone loses service somewhere in the middle of a roundabout and you keep circling until you run out of gas.
I’ll see you next time, he says, as you drive toward and then past. But there might not be a next time. The GPS lady in my head cannot be trusted, just like most other GPS ladies.
The boy at the mexican restaurant sets down chips and guacamole on the table, yells in Spanish to his coworker, grins at us and asks if we’d like water. He is beautiful. We leave and the air is warm, perfect, green, new, lovely.
“You are lovely,” he tells me, in another language I don’t understand. There is no time to waste on people who aren’t wonderful.
My car is not green but I can imagine that it is. I have no idea where it and I will take me. The road is terrifying and beautiful and long and if you want to come with me, you can, but I’m not turning around for you.
1. Where’s Monaco? I think it’s by France. Or maybe it’s in France. Or maybe they just speak French there.
2. The next time you see someone you don’t know, go up to them, introduce yourself, and ask them how old they are. Let’s get over this whole my-age-is-my-secret crap!
3. Girls! Why are so many of you so pitifully needy? That’s not attractive, and it makes me hate you a little bit. Stop.
4. Has anyone else ever thought about how weird wisdom teeth are?
5. Why do we name hurricanes? Isn’t that sort of the same as giving a serial killer lots of media attention?
6. When people die, newspapers usually give them a one-liner obituary. A lot of the time it’s something like, “Betty enjoyed knitting.” What will your obituary sentence be?
7. Are “hipsters” even a thing anymore?
8. Can we all just be honest with each other and talk about how ugly TOMS shoes are?!
9. In novels, there are flat characters and round characters. The same goes for real life. Are you a flat character or a round one?
10. If someone tells you that they don’t like an idea that you have – even if you think it’s really great – accept it. Move on. They don’t like it! End of story. What are you, an only child?